Kailan

Akala mo, okay ka na.
Akala mo, naka-move on ka na.
Pero sa oras na ikaw na lang ang mag-isa habang tinitignan ang nakaraan, doon mo mas mararamdaman ang tunay na sakit.
Sakit na akala mong wala na ngunit ito’y sadyang nakabaon lang at wala kang balak hukayin.
Sakit na akala mong hindi mo mararamdaman ngunit ika’y nagkamali.

Ngayon, tanging luha ang nagpapakita kung gaano kasakit ang iyong naranasan sa kamay nang PAG-IBIG.
Ngunit ano pa bang magagawa?
Pag-ibig ay tila naglaho na nang para bang isang bula.
Isang bula na tinangay nang malakas na hangin palayo sa iyo.

Kailan ba?
Kailan ba tatama ang pana ni Kupido sa taong nakatakda sayo?
Nakakapagod magmahal.
Nakakapagod masaktan.
At higit sa lahat,
Nakakapagod nang magtiwala nang paulit-ulit at sa bandang huli’y ikaw pa ang masasaktan.

Kaya pa ba?
Kaya pa bang magmahal nang isang pusong hindi lang wasak kung ‘di durog nang dahil lang sa lecheng PAG-IBIG na yan?

Kailan pa?
Kailan pa darating yung taong nakatakdang ayusin at buuin ang pusong durog at handang turuan itong magmahal ulit.

Handa pa ba?
Handa ka pa bang isugal ang pusong ilang beses nang nasaktan nang dahil lang sa pagmamahal.

Ikaw?
Kailan ka magiging handang kalimutan ang nakaraan at gawin na lamang itong isang leksyon para sa kinabukasan.
Kailan mo bubuksan ang puso at mundong iyong iniikutan sa isang taong handang gawin ang lahat, mapasaya ka lamang.

Kailan?

Isang Laro

Akala mo’y isang simpleng laro ngunit hindi mo akalain na ito pala’y isang patibong.
Patibong patungo sa sugat na kailanma’y mananatiling nakaukit diyan sa puso mo.
Ngunit paano na, laro’y nasimulan na at wala nang atrasan pa.
Kaligayahan mo ang nakasugal kapalit nang isang magandang laro.
Pero teka,
ito ba ay isang magandang laro o isang laro na ang dahilan nang pagpatak ng iyong mga luha.
Wala na.
Wala ka nang magagawa pa kung hindi ang ipagpatuloy ang larong nasimulan kahit gusto mo nang umatras.
At ang tangi mo lang magagawa ay maging maingat sa lahat ng hakbang upang ang pusong nakasugal ay mabawi mo pa nang buo sa oras na matapos ang laro at ikaw ang naging talunan.

Just for Today.

People are asking “What’s wrong with you my dear?!”
I replied simply nothing in return.
Even myself do not know what’s the answer, all I know is I want to be far from these people.
Gloomy night it seems but no, it’s not raining cats nor dogs.
It’s my thoughts and emotions that keeps on boggling me.
Feeling exhausted from all these people I need to please whenever I see them.
I need people who take things positively
Not with these people who judge someone easily.
Maybe, I hope it’s just a maybe.
I’m maybe just tired of everything I’m facing right now.
Leave me please, let me feel the word “Lonely”
‘Cause I want to be an introvert just for a day.

Stupid Love 💔

Asking for someone’s time is like begging for someone’s memory.
Too sad if they can’t give it to you.
But too painful if they just set you aside.
Unrequited love it may seems but you’re wrong in such a way.

They started like strangers, then become lovers.
How cliche if this was a story but no, it’s a true love story.
Though you felt the pain, I know at the end you’ll just forgive him and move on.

Thinking about the happy thoughts you’ve made together which keeps you holding on.
Problems are there but memories will surely be dominant.
No matter how many times it hurt you, forgiving him is the only choice you have.
Unless you want to stop and break up with him.

But Im sure, you will just give up if you get tired of understanding and not loving him.

It’s true, no matter how smart you are, love do really make you stupid.

Hello there, 2017!

Hello everyone! 🙌

It’s nice to officially back from hassle work and holidayssss. 🎄🎆🎉
How was your holidays, anyway? Did you had enough time with your family or you spent it at work like me.
Hay, buhay hotelier nga naman.

Though I was quite lucky since sumakto sa rest day ko ang Christmas and New Year’s eve. I think, bawing bawi na yun since I spent it with my family kahit AM shift the next day.
I was not that active for the past few months dahil sa pagka-demanding nang trabaho ko 😑 Some days, I’ve worked for 12 hours and I’d rather choose to sleep than to read and update my blog since my eyes was begging for rest.
Idagdag mo pa ang 3 weeks graveyard shift then after, AM shift. Pakihanap nga ang hustisya. 😭

New Year. New opportunities. New me.

Well, I’ve had the chance to recap my 2016 before it bids goodbye and I just suddenly realized how workaholic I’am! I forgot how to enjoy life the way I always wanted to be. My work crushed all my goals for 2016 and I was quite sad about it. The good thing is, I had the chance to atleast have an out of town even just for a day. Pangpalubag-loob ko iyon. Buti na lang talaga, natuloy yung overnight stay sa Tagaytay, kung hindi. Ay nako talaga.
I have many New Year’s resolutions and the number one on the list is to TRAVEL!
YES!
Werk. Werk. Werk.
Ipon. Ipon. Ipon.
Travel. Travel. Travel.
Ganern! 😍
I just need to be more responsible and discipline enough to earn money. Lakas kasi maka-tempt nang pagkain eh 😭

Though 2016 was about career, family and friendship, I will always be thankful and grateful for a prosperous year that God had given to me. Trials are there, sadness are there but at the end of the day, happiness will conquer everything together with the faith for a better future. 😁 I will face 2017 with a brighter thought and positive goals for me to grow as an individual. Please, sana maisingit ko si diet. I want to enjoy the reality of life which was given to me. I might welcomed 2017 being single, who knows I might say goodbye to her with someone beside me. But, love life is not my priority for this year. This year is all about me, myself and I! Together with the people I treasure the most.

So Cupid, if ever you’re reading this, please don’t aim your arrow to me yet. But if you insist, then aim your arrow also to the person I’am destined with because I don’t want to let my heart be broken again. For now, let me love myself first ❤

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2017 will surely be my year! Let’s claim it!

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