Should I give up or should I just keep on chasing
pavements my dreams.
I’ve been chasing my dreams for more than a year but here I’m, I’m all alone without you.
I’m not brokenhearted or what so ever that connects to a relationship. My heart is not the one I’m talking about but my life. Unfair is the only thing I can describe it but I have no choice to keep on moving forward.
Waking up in the morning, help some chores, sit in front of the computer, prepare something for dinner, watch some shows on tv and take a rest. That’s my daily routine the moment I resigned from my work.
Yes! I’m proud to say that I resigned from a company. That’s it. Main reason why? I want to escape from the too much stress they keep on giving me every time I start the day. Some people will say, it’s normal. Stress is normal when you’re working but for me, as long as you love what you are doing stress will never freak you out.
It’s been three months when I became a house person and it kills me to death. Not because I’m bored staying at home, but because I want to earn money! I want to buy things on my own expense. Asking for someone’s money just to satisfy me is not so me.
Sometimes, I just want to sit down and start to wool gathering. Feeling the air, like today! I went to our rooftop, feel the cold Christmas air and whenever I think of Christmas, I feel deeply sad. But I will never let the sadness conquer my whole mind.
What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. Stand a little taller! Doesn’t mean I’m lonely when I’m alone
Oh yeah! That makes sense.
I’m not lonely! I’m with GOD, standing firm beside me. HE’s there every time I needed HIM the most. I know that HE’s also teaching me some lessons that I will surely needed in the future, maybe HE’s just preparing me for a bigger one.
Remember, GOD will never give us a problem which we cannot overcome.
I keep on telling myself when I’m depressed that no one will ever motivate you other than yourself.
It’s true! A friend told me that my worst enemy is no other than myself. Though at first I don’t get what he said, I just eventually understands it as I go on in this battle of life.
It might lessen the pain but at the end of the day, I need to face the fact that I need to get out of the box, find a work and reach for my dream.
Maybe, at the end of the day, I just need some chocolates and fries to ease the sadness and continue to find a work 😉