Hey, I’m doing just fine!

After a few months of being on a hiatus, I’m feeling good to finally back! Though you don’t notice that I’ve been inactive, I think you still deserve to know the main reasons why.

FIRST, I’ve just started working for a new company 5 months ago and I’m still in the transition stage, as what they call. It’s hard to leave my safe haven for almost 3 years and days after my last day with them, I welcomed another set of people in my world. I was in the process of leaving that place and welcoming another at the same time. It took me a lot of time to finally accept things out and adjust to the culture where I’m currently at.  Eventually, work made me busy as a bee. Those were the times of my life that I was totally preoccupied with the things that surround me.Read More »

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Let Me Be

How do you mend a broken heart?
A heart that was shattered again and again but keeps on loving the same man who broke it?
My world is broken and so my heart is.
The hardest part is waking up each morning knowing he’s gone.
No more morning calls, no more cuddles and the worst are no more “I love you too”every time you’ll say “I love you”.
We all know that it takes seconds to say hello BUT it takes FOREVER to say goodbye.
Moving on is easy but it is the memories you need to leave behind is what makes it hard.
I won’t ever leave you no matter how many times you say I leave you.
That’s what you feel and see but do you ever care to know what I feel during the days you thought I leave you?
I love you ever since you have my YES but I can’t stand seeing us being trapped on the same broken feelings.
There is no such thing as fall out of love when it’s all about your first love.
Because they say that first love never dies and I do believe on that.
I never fall out of love with you because I know it was real when I saw your face during the time I hurt you the most.
Let me be the one to suffer all the consequences I’ve done way back.
If only I believe in every word you said, we could be the happiest couple living together.
But everything was all in the past now and the present is my punishment for leaving you.
For being too weak in fighting the love that we lost the moment I said goodbye.
I’m sorry if kept my love away from you.
I’m sorry for not trusting and believing in every word you said.
But it is hard to pretend that I don’t care during the times I want to hug you.
It’s hard to pretend that I don’t ever love you when my heart is shouting only your name.
If only I close my eyes and listen to my heartbeat, I will never fall out of love with you.
NEVER.
So let me be the one to suffer and see you walk out of the door.
Let me be the one to cry all night long until this pain lasts.
and let me be the one to be broken and see you love someone else.
So I’m telling you for one last time and GOODBYE…
But if you love me still then stay, don’t keep me waiting for that final kiss.
I just need to get this off my chest, that you will always HAVE MY HEART.
Let me talk to you for one last time to say the words that I should say 10 years ago.
All I want to tell is “I LOVE YOU” and always will.
You’re the part of my heart that will never stop from beating.
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It’s Time

Have you ever been in a scenario wherein you feel so stupid?
That you woke up one day and everything you did yesterday was already forgotten?
That you just realized that you are not the person you met before?

Something had changed but you don’t know what it is.
A part of your brain tells you that there is something wrong but another part tells that it’s part of you growing up.
You don’t even know if you are totally growing up on the right side or not.
You want to bring up the person you are yesterday but you don’t know how to do it.
Something is surely changed.
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My Heart

I can’t say goodbye ‘cos my heart doesn’t want to.
I can’t bear to see you leaving ‘cos my heart tears into two.
I don’t want to see you go ‘cos my heart will always look after you.

But what can I do?
If you left us with nothing to choose.
You left us hearing nothing until your last breath.
You left ME in just a blink of an eye.
I thought we will fight until the end but what was just happened?
I don’t know how will I react the moment I read about it.
You left me without anything to hold on.
WHY?!
Why did you do this to ME?! TO US?!
Leaving me without hearing from you is when you hit me right through my broken heart.
It’s like, you leave me alone on a dance floor without knowing the reason why.
My heart wants to shout but only silence is all it can do in reality.
I didn’t just lost a FRIEND but also someone whom I called a TRUE FRIEND.

It will take time to heal, the broken heart you leave.
But I know one day, it will eventually accept the fact that you are gone.
I will miss you for your boldness up to the very small part of you.
I will keep everything like a treasured gold that no one else can get away from me.
It might be too late to say,
But you are the future husband I was expecting when I was still in college.
Too late to say but only in front of your gravestone is where I can confess it.
The letter will forever keep together with the love you gave.
I’m sorry if I just said it too late but I don’t regret anything because we remain friends until the very end.

You might leave me brokenhearted but I will never forget the love you showed to me.
It will always be remembered because you are my friend that turns into my lover.

Until we meet again, my friend and my lover.

 

Please, stay…

I want you to stay, never go away from me.
STAY FOREVER.

 When was the last time I heard those words coming from your mouth?
I never thought that leaving each other’s heart is the only resort that we have.
But what can I do if you already leave me without telling me the reasons why?
You leave like I was nothing to you because you left me without saying goodbye.

Now that you’re gone.
Here I am lost somewhere, where no one will find my broken heart.
I love you but that doesn’t mean that you will stay beside me forever.
It hurts that you walk away too easily but you know what hurts the most?
It is me seeing your back walking away from me without looking back.
If you love me, please let me know.
If not, please gently let me go.

Sometimes love just ain’t enough to keep some at your side.
Sometimes we have to let go of someone we used to love not because we want to but we HAVE to.
I can’t stand seeing you not because I hate you but because seeing you reminds me that not everyone I love can be with me.
Sometimes, it is better to love you from afar than telling myself that I can’t have you.

But please I want you to know how much I love you.
Walk with me, stay with me, share your life with me and let’s face the fate together.
I need you and I want you to be in my life.
I don’t want you to forget all the memories we’ve had.
Deep in my heart saying I don’t want you to leave me.

Please.
Please stay.

 

 

KDrama Review: Strong Woman Do Bong-Soon

StrongWomanDoBong-soon_(Main_poster)Casts:
Park Bo-young as Do Bong-soon
Park Hyung-sik as Ahn Min-hyuk
Ji Soo as In Guk-doo

Episodes:   16 + 1 Special 
Genre:   Fantasy | Thriller | Action | Romantic-Comedy

Verdict:   4/5

Do Bong Soon is a woman with superhuman strength. With her strength, he gets hired as the bodyguard of the spoiled CEO of the gaming company Ainsoft, Ahn Min Hyuk. Min Hyuk is being threatened by an unknown enemy and is determined to solve the problem himself out of his distaste for distrust of the police. In Guk Doo is a policeman and Bong Soon’s crush since childhood. When series of kidnappings occur in Bong Soon’s small, quiet neighborhood Dobong-dong, their little community is thrown into chaos. Combined with the job of protecting her boss’s life, Bong Soon’s already unusual life has gone wild. However, she must be careful; if she misuses her strength, she could lose it forever.

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Life in 23

What does it feel to be 23?

Well, nothing is special but it’s the age where you will meet different people in your life.
I’ve been into the hotel industry for almost two years and as I go on, I’ve met people who eventually come and go.
Why? Because they have their own lives to make and I’m not one of those people whom they choose to stay.
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KDrama: The Legend of the Blue Sea

36096065393cf0d7f96f59f3f396f2a5--potato-couch.jpgCasts:
Jun Ji-Hyun as Se-Hwa | Shim Chung
Lee Min-Ho as Kim Dam-Ryung | Heo Joon-Jae

Episodes:   20 + 1 Special 
Genre:   Romance | Fantasy

Verdict: 4/5

The television series centers on the love story of Heo Joon-Jae (Lee Min-ho), the son of a rich businessman who becomes a handsome and clever con-man after his parents’ divorce, and a mermaid named Shim Cheong (Jun Ji-hyun). Focusing on rebirth, fate, and unrequited love, their tale is juxtaposed with the parallel story of their Joseon era incarnations, town head Kim Dam-ryeong, and the mermaid Se-Hwa.

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A Day around Manila’s Museums

It was one Saturday morning when I finally decided to join Johhan to one of his talks on which he was one of the coordinators.  I woke up at 7:30 am but decided to prepare at 8:00 and leave the house around 9:00 am.
Antok pa akesh! 😴
It took me an hour and a half to reach the location which is Intramuros. Antrapik! Sabadong sabado eh.
The talk took place on Plaza Moriones, Intramuros which started at 9:00am, I know. I know, super late na akong dumating. It is about “The Voyage of Balangay” and I decided not to go inside where the talk was going on. Wala akong kilala ni-isa sa kanila 😭 I know them only by name and nothing else. At the same time, nilalamon na ako nang kahihiyan kahit wala akong ginagawa. Introvert mode ON. 
So, I stayed outside the area and roamed around. Introvert strikes me again and this time, it was quite hard. Really hard. It has been a long time the last time I encounter people whom I do not even know who. I left Johhan inside until he informed me that we need to ride the Tranvia going to CCP to visit the Balangay.

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The New Fort Santiago

It was the 1st of May when Johhan picked me up from work in Makati and decided to have late lunch in Binondo. Anlayo diba?! We rode a jeepney going to Manila Cathedral where we can have our ride going back home. He informed me about the new look of Fort Santiago which caused , actually it was just me, to go and check it out.

It was already 7pm and I was really torn if we will head back home or spend a little time to explore the area, I need to wake up early the next day since I’m in morning shift that time. But at the end, I was pursued by his words and ended up walking towards the new gate of Fort Santiago. We walked around and I was mesmerized by the new lighting of the area. Time is running out and we really need to head back home. We promised that we will go back and explore the new look of the place and check out the newly opened, The Dungeons.

KDrama: Cinderella and the Four Knights

Cinderella_and_Four_Knights_-_Promotional_posterCasts:
Park So-dam 
as Eun Ha-won
Jung Il-Woo 
as Kang Ji-Woon
Ahn Jae-Hyun 
as Kang Hyun-min
Lee Jung-Shin 
as Kang Seo-woo
Choi Min
as Lee Yoon-sung

Episodes:   16
Genre:   Romance | Comedy

Verdict:   4/5

The story about Eun Ha-Won, a bright but lonely girl abused by her stepmother and stepsister who, in order to pursue her dream, left home and ends up living in a big mansion together with three Kang cousins and their bodyguard.

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She is me

I asked her if she was okay,
she smiled at me and said yes.
But when I looked into her eyes,
all I can see is her struggles in life.

She knows how and when to smile,
even she’s slowly dying inside.
She doesn’t want anyone else to see,
all the tears her eyes want to hide.

I knew she was hurting,
but everyone is too blind not to see.
I can see what she’s hiding,
but she just looked away and smiled.
A smile that no one else knows
how painful memories mold it.

She refuses to tell anyone
because she felt the pain is only for her to feel.

I feel her and I know her
because SHE is ME.